What I Haven’t Felt…

😔
I haven’t really felt lonely since Jason died.
I know, that sounds a little unbelievable. 
But it’s true.
I’ve been alone.
I just haven’t felt lonely.

Until now.
This weekend.
Coleman was at his cousin’s house on Saturday night.
I came home after dropping him off and felt something different.
A little empty.
Wandering.
Searching for something that isn’t here.
Trying to read this month’s Book Club book.
Looking at the clock.
Counting hours till bedtime.
Lonely.

It didn’t last.
It isn’t permanent.
It’s fleeting, really.
Just a weekend.
But it was there.

Lonely.
Now I know how it feels.💙✊🏻